How many times is this going to happen before I end up shooting myself in the face?

I mean, seriously. How many times am I going to have to say I DON’T WANT TO GO TO NORTHERN before they finally fucking get it? Any fucking place I say I want to go to, it’s either too expensive, too far, you don’t REALLY wanna go there, no absolutely not. 

THEN DON’T FUCKING HELP ME. It makes me so depressed and anxious and just pissed off that they haven’t gotten the hint by now. That they are trying to FORCE me to go somewhere I have absolutely ZERO interest in going to. 

If you aren’t going to support me at all, then stop butting in. I don’t want to hear your damn opinions. I don’t see why it’s so fucking hard to just say OKAY MICHELLE, IF THAT’S REALLY WHERE YOU WANNA GO, THEN OKAY!

And if that’s not how it’s going to be EVER, no matter what major I’m in, then fuck off. 

JUST. FUCK. OFF. 

I stopped by the library today to try and pick up a specific children’s book for a project I am doing and being in there made me feel really nostalgic and also really excited for my future at the same time. 

Flipping through all the picture books reminded me so much of being in 1st or 2nd grade, when I used to go home and play teacher all night. I’d take home my teacher’s extra worksheets for my “class” and read books aloud to my neighbors and idk it was just really fun. And it’s so weird now being in college and making real lesson plans to actually do those things with a real class. To have something that I used to play as a game when I was younger become my future career is kind of crazy when you really think about it. 

I’m tired but in a good mood today! I got some information on another college I’m looking into and class went by pretty quickly. I have the night to myself so I think I’m going to get started on a project I have for one of my edu classes! 

Still kind of in shock after meeting Lauren Conrad last night. It was so surreal and amazing. I wish I could do it again :)

Okay so last night I finished my very first bulletin board project for my education class! IT IS SO CUTE. I did it on weather! So there’s a panda that you dress up according to the weather, cloud poems, and the water cycle that has velcro on the back so the kids have to put the pieces of the cycle in the correct order! Also for my activity I’m having everyone make MINI RAIN STICKS. Seriously so cool. I’m so excited to teach it on Monday!

Been listening to Demi Lovato for hours now. Love it.

Today I went and visited WIU. I really liked it a lot more than I liked NIU so now it’s coming down to getting my parents to stop fighting me on it.

25/3/12 @ 1:01am • 1 ♥
Fuck.

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It doesn’t need to be this complicated.

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5/3/12 @ 12:55am • 0 ♥

Already missed 20 points in my online history class because I didn’t check it for like 2 1/2 weeks… No one should ever let me do an online class again. I can never do them right. 

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3/2/12 @ 2:24pm • 0 ♥

God, I hate online classes WHY DO I KEEP SIGNING UP FOR THEM????

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3/2/12 @ 2:11pm • 1 ♥
College.

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1/2/12 @ 11:42pm • 1 ♥

Omg today in my music class for elementary teachers, we had to sit out in the hall and sing this indian song that was all

"HAAA NEEEE KOOOO NEEE HA HO HA HO NEEEEEEE"

and that was only the first part. It was awkward and then the teacher got up and started doing an indian dance.

I KID YOU NOT.

tagged as personal. college.
20/1/12 @ 1:21am • 0 ♥

It’ll be a really awesome feeling to get an acceptance letter from a university rather than acceptance to a program at another community college.

18/1/12 @ 8:16pm • 10 ♥

It’s really annoying that whenever I tell someone I’ve changed my major, they’re like “BUT YOU GOT A TOOTH TATTOOED ON YOUR FOOT!!!!!” 

Like me wanting to do dental hygiene was the only reason I got that -_-

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18/1/12 @ 6:40pm • 0 ♥

Tomorrow I have my first day of “Music for the elementary teacher!” I’m kind of excited but also kind of nervous since I missed the real first day of class :P

tagged as personal. music. college.
18/1/12 @ 5:34pm • 2 ♥

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